It’s good to stay active one way or another using the internet. All too often we can fall to silence in favour of privacy. Which is imperative to maintain our own blueprints. To have our own time with nature, animals, family and most of all ‘self.’ I guess it is about balance.

Recent months have changed the way I look at life and also my mindset. The way a bad spell of purpose can throw us off our intended paths. The attention of unwanted people on and off line, who seek to send harm and bad outcomes. I suppose it happens to all of us at some time in our lives. And through these experiences I have learned much of those who have some kind of resentment toward another, may do so because they are unable to address their own weaknesses within their often-fake outward perspective. But it is not our job to fix people. Instead we must remain away from their energy.

An empath will seek the balance in situations but equally may take on too much. When really, less is more in terms of responsibility … our personal world and space often becoming overlooked. It may seem that an empath is an easy target because they are not afraid to show their feelings and emotions. But this is a strength. To be original and our own unique self without any need to mislead others. There are chiefs and Indians, society needs both. Every great pioneer needs their muse.

I have tried to continue with my book but unfortunately there was evidence a third party had managed to logon to my personal word docs. It is clearly obvious who it is. And what a shame there seems a constant ongoing need to invade my data. But this is life. I think if someone gave me a magic wand and said I was able to read into the phone or laptop of another, I would hand it back. Because I am an activist in that I believe each of us has a right to be protected by the laws of Data Privacy Protection. And that protection is also available by our chosen loved one to over see the potential of harm and threats on our behalf. As good as the web is for delegation and information, the internet is a festering space for cowards to make others feel isolated, alone and often in despair. The run-aways of society who often use a falsely portrayed hierarchy to inflict misery toward vulnerability. Yet an empath does not seek approval such like those driven by ego. It takes courage to be genuinely kind in this dimension.

I applaud Elon Musk for what he has pioneered with his now Twitter platform. A new territory for him, amongst other topics. And I know a lot have resented Elon for his wealth. But I don’t believe his initial agenda was to become rich beyond words. He followed an insight to work with physics, tech and engineering aspects, pushing beyond his ability, thus delivering great sustainable and progressive change to the world of industry and innovation. And somebody has to do it. We can all use our gifts how we wish to do so. I think with Twitter it will take tweaks and trials to create a more ideal platform to its former self. And to encourage people to create and write more. Posting quick reactions/statements less, may hopefully entice humans to consider their passions more deeply, with less about hashtags and emojis and worshiping those who seek applause for doing very little. A system partially made up of lazy and inaccurate thinking with little stability in the real world.

It will also aid those who may lack confidence and expression to become more confident. Particularly humans who have in the past felt excluded. I like the idea of setting up small groups with mentors. As opposed to the less worthy ‘high profiles’ and ‘fans.’ That said there are good role models out there who have public presence. But we have to be careful of bias with agenda behind it. And that applies to politics. A very corrupt industry right across the world. And indeed, a great deal of abuse and bullying lies within such corridors. It is not a job I could ever participate with. There are so many haters out there. And I often wonder why, if they have such a strong opinion, do they not undertake such a career in order to be heard with some kind of dignity. And with protestors, if a group of people feel so strongly to be heard, there really needs to be a common ground, because passion for change is not a crime when there is debate. To arrest in particular younger people and lock them away for wanting to help the planet will only create an ongoing hostility for their ambition. That said, public safety is important, to include privacy.

I have messed up myself on social media where I have had a glass of wine, said what I really think, then wake up to quickly delete my rage. As to be honest my real life is very peaceful, and I don’t want to portray myself as a problem maker. Although I do have strong opinions about many subjects. It is better to write an essay than post a sporadic tweet.  

It’s about putting the trust back to people who deserve a voice and giving them the tools how to do this. I also think there’s a lot of brave people using the platform who are getting a huge amount of hate speech by response. I wonder whether some of these haters would speak the same odium they type within a face to face situation. That said, and even worse are those who pay others to take a person’s privacy just to fill their own head with the private life of another. It’s a Pandora’s Box of uncontrolled emotion with no justification combined with too much time and money. We are surrounded by cowards. Hacking, stalking and intimidation must stop and soon. It is the greatest loop hole within the criminal system so far.

As tech evolves and AI (artificial intelligence) those who are not of stable minds will be given the tools to destroy others behind a keyboard, a lens or Smart Phone. And that worries me. I don’t want to spend my life changing passwords, having to restore factory settings to devices and be conscious of invasion when trying to speak to loved ones or work from home. But that’s the way this world is going unless you are privileged enough to bypass the basic methods for which most of us are limited to.

I wrote a short but sweet love letter this week. To the man I love, and it felt so good. We should never forget how special romance can be when we make small efforts. How it can improve a day, to show someone special how much we care. Especially when we cannot see them each morning. I love what has happened in the little garden outside. I just got to assume that my life would or could not ever improve, as when the wrong person becomes obsessed, believing they have some kind of connection, even when you block them and make clear they should stop.

It is about getting the right help with trained professionals, dealing with feelings that should never be directed at another. And leaving it alone. I never thought these last months could be so tough, but good did come. And it’s true the best things arrive through our darkest hours. I am sorry since some of what I have put above is repetitive. Yet I guess with over ten years of continuous abuse it all had to explode somewhere. I had assumed it would be going on for the rest of my life. But not the case. I stood in my power, shouted about it and did not give up fighting for my life. And I tell you why, I do have a spiritual faith and I am never alone.

It is a pity we cannot all take time to tap into the higher good because it is the most grounding and self-fulfilling form of healing there is and such consciousness will help us find new myriads and pathways to the people who want to give us hope and support. More so true love where both parties give mutually. I was living from one day to the next in fear. I really believed nobody would come to help. That bystanders would pretend it was not happening to me. But then how could any of us stop the unthinkable when it is all done by means of financed force.

And people who are in denial of such hateful acts of social power will never be content. Worst than evil is to allow it. Regardless of how many prizes they win, money they stack in the banks, or seemingly perfect lives they lead. You have to first suffer to realise there is always a shining star. The Yin and Yang. To feel despair and hardship, making a better future with clarity and light. But to also know that each and every one of us is deserving of a good and abundant life. To accept help, to surrender to love and to work with the love, because there are always new doors that are better together infinitively. And I so want more than anything to do as best as I can to not only work with my heart but to support my life purpose and good things.

I am better with my heart open than closed, fearful and afraid. Life is too short. But I want my privacy. Every person who wishes to thrive publicly needs his counterpart. It’s the perfect conjunction. I have never enjoyed the limelight alone, but I do applaud the constructiveness of others with great qualities on that platform of hope. We as a race are better together.

A woman who seems alone will eventually be targeted and often by those who claim to fight her corner. Be aware and tread with caution. There’s some real evil out there waiting for a gap to spread his own diseased mind to her peace and space. Women need help and women are the Lotus Flower of hope and love.

Tiffy Belle

This is all waffle. Not premeditated (as you can probably tell) since I am not so keen on sharing these days, as I am so very transitional. I have other stuff on my mind. But I feel brave. Just because you want to be quiet does not make any person a victim to the emotional shit from others who do not deal with their own baggage responsibly.

I don’t wish anyone harm. But I do know karma does work itself out in the end. And although the good seemingly suffer more on Earth. It won’t always be like that. We all get our awards universally. Time is truly boundless and faith tests us. If a flower is in the right soil and light it will be perfect during its life. If it cannot grow we change it’s position for next time. Nature gives us the right tools and it is down to society use to use them with love.

Thank you beautiful people and play Jazz because there’s so many styles of it, you will find the one right for you. Jazz does not want to harm anyone or tell you how to think. It’s love music. I have also been making my own tea and have a compost bin. Although it’s gonna take time to fill. So far there’s two banana skins, eight tea bags, a dead bunch of flowers and a bit of grass in it.  But who cares, we are trying our bit here!

Be kind folks and if you don’t like a person, fine leave them alone. They’re probably not too keen on you either. It’s all about being kind in this old world as there’s enough crap out there as it is. Hope everyone has a good week. There is more good in the world than bad. To see the positive. Love wins and love is kindness.

With Love. X

p.s. have been visiting some stunning little independent venues full of design and ambience and taking pics for my mood boards. And I will edit this blog later as it is typed badly but am done with the web for today. Time to poach the perfect free range eggs!