We can turn off online abuse and intimidation but when it transpires into our personal space at home and/or at work this becomes an extreme form of unnecessary hardship based upon the obsession and control of evil acts. All I can say to those who feel afraid, vulnerable or isolated at the will of another. Things will get better because there is a much bigger platform than the ones we can see around us. help is available. talk to people.

I had an amazing experience yesterday. I went for my walk and talk with strangers. No matter what the weather I put myself into life, even for just a few moments. I saw these flowers on the counter in a black bucket in Tesco Express on Clifton Street in Lytham. That’s where I normally walk at night. I said to the lady on the till (who had such a warm persona), ‘these flowers need some TLC’.

There were two bunches of lilies with cabbage plants and a bunch of carnations. She said I could take them all, as they were out of date and nobody had bought them. I told her I would just take one bunch but she was most adamant I had the lot. So I picked up the lilies then told the younger girl behind me to have the last bunch of carnations. The girl went on to explain they were her favourite flowers and that day her boyfriend had finished with her. That she was struggling. She had tears. I got home and felt a sense of comfort, putting life back into perspective.

We had come to Lytham for privacy which is now impossible due to events from last week involving tech equipment around a private family home and the local vicinity. It is in hand, they have traced the signal to the origin, but the shock of experiencing this is hard to digest at this time. Criminal phycology experts are essential. But it also fuels the fire of the mentally unstable who regard this acceptable. Though fortunately, I am trained in such matters with my volunteer work.

That said, last Saturday I had another amazing experience in the charity shops. I found faith and kindness. One counteracts the other but the frustration of ongoing attention from a very evil entity that spreads fear and hate is ongoing. Modern day Comedy is necessary but unfortunately stolen when it is used to send threats and conflict to the vulnerable as though stuck somewhere in the 1970’s. And with any perpetrator they need validation even if it is not positive. They thrive on attention and phycological warfare. Women, don’t feed the dark but never be silenced. There’s more good out there than bad. I am excited to nurse these flowers to some kind of salvation. Poor things.

Mom’s garden is under way. Despite the weather. We are happy. One day at a time. Deflect the darkness. It’s yuletide. Privelidge is not only monetary. It’s respect, values and conscience on a widespread level. I am a strong person. A daughter to be proud of and a mum of steel. I am a partner of trust and we walk free together. It’s my circle. Never broken. Get on with your lives because air is sweet and snow is pure.

I need to show you the buffalo and sheep foot stools I found soon. Charity is on all our doorsteps. I have the dentist this morning. His name is Sanjiv. He is such a lovely man. I am looking forward to a root filling … (crazy.) But the better news is I get my nails done tomorrow and my tootsies. I may get disheveled but I always look after my nails. It’s the cat or the rat in me.

Tiff. X

When we craft, we like peace. It was the same when I designed Belleva. I wanted it all to come together organically. Designing any space is slowing down to find the right collectives to make a room come alive. And then everything must settle together. And I love to create on a shoestring.

It’s been such an amazing journey so far. But the important thing is to avoid negative distractions. Focusing only on our love source. And in this case, it is my closest. And also, my departed dad. But most of all … the pets, who are on the journey with me. We have a new cat that was from a plant pot on Bolton Street. I did not believe he would survive. He was so sick. Found by two of my best friends and nursed 24/7 by another exceptionally special lady from Tender Paws Cat Rescue. He is called Billy and seeing him grow in character has been a joy not to be missed. He had cat flu, wasn’t keeping down his food. He was terrified and broken, but he wanted to live. He has fitted in so well. That was until I put a cat harness on him last weekend and tried to walk him around the garden. It traumatised him. He rolled into a ball and tried to chew it off. We both cried. I think he thought I was taking him away. The dogs panicked which made it worse. We are all so protective of little Billy. He is a house cat, and he lives on a pillow.

I am enjoying my quiet space and time. Yes of course there will always be niggles and problems, such as unwanted attention from the warped and twisted. But we just must stay on course to work, survive and live for the future away from such like.

Each winter I become unwell. I need daylight and privacy. To manifest my energy for the return of spring and stay close to my heart. It works best for us. There are intrusive matters in hand being dealt with that are not pleasant but let’s all send sympathy to those sick minded. The ones who appear the strongest may need medical help most. Get well soon to the applicable. It must be awful to live that way.

Yesterday I bought a natural mohair bear. I saw him in a shop window a few days ago and had to have him. Bears find me. I have a panda, a reiki bear. Neither of which I planned. This one is called Alex and he is grey. When I asked the shopkeeper where the bear had gone, she explained he was in her office as unbeknown to how it happened, his arm had come off. I asked if he was still for sale, and she was mystified as to how I should want a broken bear? I explained being broken made him mine as I rescue animals. So, Alex would fit into my world perfectly. I got him home for £20 instead of £140. Feeling blessed.

Life’s too short to chase things that we are never going to get or to be bitter, jealous or resentful. You just have to let go of hateful thoughts and bad intention. Be more like me and just be happy with what life brings naturally.

The garden work should start next week. Hopefully without any aggravation or unwanted observation. It’s all in the book. Thank God for my journal.

Also, I have been baking a lot. Mushrooms are a good source of Vit D. Just add a load with a couple of veg or chicken stock cubes. Garlic and onions. Either almond or evaporated milk, water as required then blend. It’s YUM!!

Built a bed and gorgeous sofa this week. Must put some pics here when I get the inclination to spend time on the internet. At the moment life is better without the burden. The sun is out and we are happy.

Tiff. X